Why, Hello World, Yes, I Do Still Exist

Even though it has been a Millennium since i last posted, I am proud to say, I am still alive, funnily enough.

Not to mention that I am back in New Zealand. :D and broke.:(

I'm going to say this. I HAVE TO EXERCISE. i really do. and ASAP. so Becbec, we shall get to it pretty soon again. and when i say pretty soon, i mean later today. ok? goodo.

waiting for food. which kumar is bringing home sometime around now.

Willy is playing with his car, on the bench. homocide is gaining appeal at the moment.. well not quite, but ya get me. GET DOWN WILLY

Need to do something really fun. really do.

boredom person is out
au revoir.

www.myspace.com/bravocolumbo

So, I've been talking to this musician, over on myspace. Bravo Columbo
hes from northern ireland. and hes pretty awesome.
hes eighteen. and i really like his music.
he asked me to spread the word about him, so i am going to. because hes really nice.
He's also a sentamentalist like me.
check him out on www.myspace.com/bravocolumbo

his music is like acoustic/folk/alternative i think. but hes really awesome. gogogogo go and check his music out. :D comment him, add him. make him big:D
espec you becbec. lol

Eloquence Is No Longer My Strong Point

Its funny how random things bring up random memories from the past.
While in New Kiwi Land (I’m sure you can figure that one out) me and Becbec would frequently visit book shops (a highly popular one named W.hi.tcouls. I think that’s how its spelt - minus the full stops, duh!). There was one book we stumbled across (I say we just for fun, because Becbec would disagree with me, and say that she found it, which is true, but because we were both there I am saying WE). I cannot, for the life of me, remember what it was called. I shall Google it and see if I can find out the name, so I’ll BRB. :D… Ahh I found it. Things I Want My Daughters To Know. [(http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/1152201.Things_I_Want_My_Daughters_to_Know seems a good site if you want information on it) I don’t know how to do those special link things so bare with me yea?]
It’s about a woman who realises she doesn’t have long left (from the blurb it doesn’t tell what her reasoning for ‘dying’ is.) so she writes letters to her four daughters, offering them advice and help and stuff (yes, very eloquently put via me. I know I know).
That’s just one part of it.
Tonight, I was reading some stories - which I have a tendency to do - I found some rather sad ones. The first one, the main character had aids, so was dying, and obviously, as all stories seem to go, he died. It was heartbreaking and I balled my eyes out. The second one the main character had cancer, and once again, died. I, once again, balled my eyes out, and I think that one got me worse then the first one.
But both stories left me thinking, especially after a line in the first one, hold on, I’ll get it:

“It’s not fair! It’s not fair for you and it’s not fair for me and I’ve been trying so hard to just act like I’m okay with this so that I can be strong for you, but I can’t anymore! I don’t want to die, I don’t want to leave you, and I’m scared and it’s not fair!”

That line was when I started crying. And I didn’t stop crying until the end. Which was quite a fair way.
It made me think about Mum. And it made me realise that I didn’t really know what she was going through, I still don’t.
Mum was so strong through her entire cancer. I watched her struggle through her every day routines, and I guess I didn’t even see her struggles, more, I didn’t realise she was struggling. (in my defence though, it wasn’t really my fault, I was just a kid, so I cant have been expected to have realised it).
I didn’t really know what Mum was like, and I only have short, fragmented memories of her. There are things that remind me of her, and stuff like that (there we go with the eloquence once more). But, like, I didn’t know what she was like as a woman, not just a mother. Because she was a great mother. When I picture what a mother should be like, I picture her. She looked after me and my sisters (as one would expect she did do). She taught us so much, she would sit with me and GeeGee (or G-Force as she is now known as) and teach us to read every night (or in my memory it was every night, it might not have been though). She was the perfect mother, well in my eyes anyway (or at least, when I wasn’t naughty and in trouble :D). Even when she was sick she would play with us girls, and everything.
But none of that is the point. Mum was a woman. She was human. And I always forget that. She was into Spirituality. She was a reiki master, she was one of those people that could tell you about your past life. She was a tarot reader. She went to the psychic conventions, and had spiritualistic friends. She had a Guardian Angel, his name was Peter, if I recall correctly. She had a purple robe (which has now been passed onto me) she had necklaces, and tie-dye clothes, she had books on crystal healing.
I have her old High School diaries, and they are a reminder that she was once a teenager. (even though sometimes I think she was more rebellious then I have ever been). I learnt about her through her diaries. And I never felt bad about reading them once. Because I believe I am entitled to read them, because I will never get the chance to ask her personally.

The quote I mentioned earlier, it made me realise, I didn’t/don’t know how she really felt while alive and suffering from cancer. It made me wonder if she felt like that much, if she was just trying to be as strong as possible for us girls.
I just wish I could ask her about it. I just wish I could ask her anything.
As I said when I first started this post. ‘Its funny how random things bring up random memories from the past.’ random stories made me think about it, and now I have all these thoughts in my head about it all, and I just cant get it into words. I cant express what I want to say, because, I don’t think there is an actual way to say it.
She was my mother, and I wish I knew what she was really like.
She IS my mother, and I wish she knew who I have become.

There was so much I wanted to say before I started writing, and once I started I got lost, and couldn’t find the right words. But that doesn’t matter, because I understand, and it doesn’t matter if no one else does, because. It just doesn’t.

Then and Now

Ahh through the years kinda.. :D
wasnt I gorgeous?
LOL
ok.
that is just sad.
Need some younger shots as well.
On the phone to Becbec. Cant wait to see her and the Wonka again.

The Traffic Lights Are Flashing,.. And We Are Smiling.

I am a little slow... with the whole updating thing that is. Delayed much??
I have been working. Mondays, Fridays and Sundays. At a supermarket.. what a blast. I dont think my feet will ever recover. I shouldnt be on my feet for longer then five minutes at a time.. unless I am shopping. but from five hours to eight hours on my feet at once.... thats just crazy. add onto that the two different buses to get there.. the first one taking about ten minutes the second one taking forty odd minutes, and than having to walk down six flights of stairs to get the the shopping complex car park, across the car park and then work. then at the end cross the car park again and go UP the six flights of stairs.. UP them.. much worse then just going down them. and then (on sundays) catching two different buses or (fridays and mondays) catching one bus for centuries!! mannn working isnt for me... the money, however, is a completely different story.. ten buckaroos an hour.. not too bad i guess.

School has kind of fizzled out for me over here.. i just couldnt get into going to school here.. wayyyy to different to any school i have ever been too. A SIX DAY TIMETABLE. like.. umm, crazy. When I first found out about that i thought they meant i would have to go to school on a Saturday.. they quickly corrected me on that one. thank god.. but it was so confusing, so i just learned that the classes go in a row. say i had a free line, art history, history, photography and then english on one day, the next day it would go art, a free line, art history, history, photography and so on like that for six days. and then go back to the beginning.. :S urrrghhh drove me bonkers it did.

So, I am still in NZ which should be pretty obvious. Have made some kinda friends here,, recognise people while out finally... which i like do be able to do.. i like to be able to go "hey Becbec, i know that dude/chick over there!" only happens sometimes though.

Have got some new clothes, some new tights. some new shoes:D some presents for peoples. and need to take some photos.

We bought some alcohol today.. a packet of six shots and a bottle of smirnoff. me and Becbec had all the shots.. three each. and then started the Smirnoff... that didnt go far.. one glass each.. we wanted alcohol, but then we sooo were not in the mood for it.. it just made us feel kinda sick:P So we have some alcohol left.. we wanted to get absolutely drunk for St Patricks day... umm.... didnt last long.
we are sooo brilliant with alcohol.!

I had a thing about trying to lose Kumbars phone. I will sometimes take it to work with me. the first time i left it on the bus. the bus driver got it for us cos becbec called up straight away when i told her as soon as i got home. so that one was very lucky, cos the bus driver took it right out of a passengers hands because they had found it :P:S and the second time i was getting changed at work, left it in the toilet cubicle, and got to the steps on the other side of the car park.. had just started up them when i heard a phone start to go off and i was like "ohh damnnnn" and turned back. it was where i had left it. mind you it was lucky, i got there just as becbec was calling me to ask me to do a bit of shopping for her.. if i had of got the call while at the steps i would have said no. i wouldnt have turned back to get it. LOL.

I got some charcoal sticks for my art and have only used them once really because i need to get an erazer for it. because i stuff up and cant get rid off the mistake. but oh wells. i will get one soon enough.

Have been reading some fan fiction.. going back over old stories that i have already read but loved. ahh good stuff good stuff. been on msn a bit. and myspace and all that jazz.. the normal stuff. my favourite days have turned out to be Tuesdays and Wednesdays. because i dont work. i dont like thursdays or saturdays because i know i have work the next days. fridays, mondays and sundays..... well thats just obvious.

well Im gona buzz on out.. its a bit late and i need sleeppp :P:P
night all.. or morning.. or whatever :D
SLAN
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Cat Flaps, Convicted Criminal Escapees and Kitchen Utensils

I havent blogged in a few days.. oopsies.. my bad
Sitting down in the lounge room with becbec, boop, kumar and willykins,. Kumar watching some shitty show, becbec on the phone to unc. bid playing with willykins and me blogging. :)

havent been up to a lot lately.. went to browns bay yesterday.. it was fun. i really like browns bay. and then we went to albany.. Browns Bay is beautiful. and i had the best chicken burger in the world. the only problem was it had onion, other then that it was the best burger in the world. I want another one NOW lol.

talked to one of my friends from tassie. hes a nice kid. goes to one of the private schools at home. we catch the same bus to town each day and back again, and i met him last year. i think hes around 13 or something. sometimes he can be annoying, but hes better then most of the kids on the bus.. lol

there was a terrible photo of me taken. and i want it deleted. but a certain someone will not delete the photo. whenever i take a photo of that certain someone and s/he doesnt like it and tells me to delete it i delete it. i just wish that s/he would show the same courtesy to me that i show to he/r. it would be muchly appreciated.

apparantly there is a convicted rapist that escaped from prison just near here. Becbec just found out about it. so a bit of worry now. said not to approach him or anything. Kumar has decided we are taking the vacuum cleaner pole upstairs with us.. hes more of a wuss then us girls. he was like "lock the doors, close the windows. lock the cat flap"...
so sure im a bit nervous about that as well.. but id safely say kumar is more so.. BAHAH lol.

i think a mozzie bit my forehead. because its itchy.
now they are talking about things to use to protect us.. a fork to stab his eyes out... umm. so now we are using kitchen utensils to protect ourselves..

im hungry.
ive been reading a story
i want to continue.
but everyone is going to bed.
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Fantastical Books, Games and Shopping

Watching Ghost Whisperer at the moment.
been spending my day on the laptop and facebooking it.
Boop is here now.. which is awesome. Us girls are sitting here freshly showered and Kumar is forgetting English words... Hmmm nice

Going out tomorrow.. to Albany. Should be fun.. hopefully it wont be all my money spent.. :P

I wonder what it would be like to be able to see and talk to ghosts.. could be pretty awesome.. and scary. was thinking about it because of ghost whisperer. and ive read the mediator books..(by Meg Cabot).. im sure there was another series that was similar to it but i cant think of it.. It intrigues me.. I love supernatural type shows and books.. fantasy i spose. i love those things.

walked to the servo this evening to get dinner.. two drinks, three cherry ripes, a thing of noodles and a packet of chips.. lol.. such a brilliant dinner. but its like the first dinner ive had in a couple of nights.

sitting next to becbec while shes blogging as well. well actually now she is facebooking, playing scramble. good game. good game.. love playing it and winning it.

well. looking forward to shopping tomorrow.

must be off
Gnight
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Starvation, Corkscrewing and Neighbours

I am sooooooooo soooooooo sooooooo hungry. Today, all I have had to eat is Two Salami Sandwhiches. but there is no extra food. bummer.. did i mention i am hungry?

anyways. enough about that.

today was spent reading.. mainly just the one story. as i have probably mentioned before, i read online. mainly at a site called fanfic.net... its awesome.. its my third or fourth home. :P

i have started writing my story now.. in the book i got yesterday? (not sure if it was yesterday or the day before)
i'm writing it as a diary kinda perspective.. but not as mine,.. how boring would that be.. just going on about how hungry i am.....


I love shopping (or window shopping) at Albany and the other place.. cant remember what that is called at the moment (short term memory loss atm).. especially at the place i cant remember the name of. but the shopping centre is soooo big.. but at the same time i think it could be bigger.. maybe thats just my girly shopping loving side of me talking.

I have done nothing to my hair today.. just because i was too lazy to and i wasnt going anywhere. But, i think I am going to do my hair how i had it yesterday.. cos i really really like it like that... (and i dont care if other people dont like it.. except of course uncyy.. :D)

becbec saw a fabulous sight today.. but if you are curios then ask her about it yer? LOL. she will know what I mean.. all I will say is next door neighbour in the kitchen ;);)
ewwww

Someone needs corkscrewing because they are insufferable

anyways.. off i go to write my of my new story
tata
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Explore the World

There Unc,, I blogged....

Hello there my peoples.
hows it all going?
good new year so far?

ok. I went like a week without hairspray or eyeliner.. OMG my life almost ended!!!! but alas, have no fear, i have them back.. and my hair is feeling soo much better now.. though it does need a haircut..

Bubba is soo adorable. And quite seriously actually pretty well behaved.... compared to other little kids.. *cough*monkeykidsatalbany*cough* he is so chatty and huggable and pooey and cute and all that. i love being around him.. except of a nighttime when trying to sleep or when he turns the computer on and off all the time.

its been great spending soo much time around becbec. we have gone out heaps.. (i like going out heaps)and done a bit of shopping.. i want to go exploring the area that we live in, but becbec doesnt want to.. lazy bum she is..(so am i though) soi have to wait for boop to get here on saturday!!!!!! =] oooh i am excited that she is coming over.. :D

i really really like it here. except for the heat. i cant handle heat. it is my enemy. yesterday on the bus the busdriver accidentally left the middle doors open and me and becbec were sitting right opposite them, so the breeze was hitting us and it was sooo nice. but then the busdriver realised they were open so he had to close them because none of the bells could ring for the stops. and the heat hit us like a ton of bricks and i almost died... again.. it was soo hot and i couldnt breathe.. it was terrible..

i have found my new favourite shop.. i think its called Rivendell or something.. it is amazing.. its like a spiritual type shop and i just want to buy everything in it. it is amazing.. i think i already said that but it seriously is.. i love it.
as a bonus i also really like the dollar shops.. they are even better then chickenfeed.. i have a tendency to get quite a few things from there.

i have to convince becbec to go exploring with me already..
i have only talked to my friends from home a couple of times..

i have yet to make any friends here.... maybe they are all just hiding at the moment lol.

On another note,, I am in the mood to party.. Like, typical teenage parties.. but not knowing anyone here means none of those parties lol. oh wells. (not that i party or anything unc.. def not!!! =P)

anyways... i updated. i love you
byee
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New Zealand TODAY and horrible Airports

Ok, so now I am in New Zealand. Using Becbecs laptop cos I am too lazy to log onto my own.

So I was woken up this morning at 4am by father switching on the light and handing me Becbec (ie the phone). Got up and got dressed and did my hair and make-up... Left for the airport and almost died of excitement.

At the airport The guy that "served" me was a gay guy named Mark. He was very nice and helpful. Then father and I sat down and i filled out this form thing. After I went through the X-ray machine I realised I didnt know which gate i was supposed to go to, so I asked the security guard and he had no idea, so he pointed me to where everyone else was in gate 3. so I sit there and then find out that it was the wrong place.. after everyone was lining up to get onto their flight.. so i went to gate two and waited..


The taking off was awesome. I loved it and I loved watching the land fly by underneath. It was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. But i didnt really like watching as we went over the water to Melbourne because it gave me motion sickness.... LOL. just my luck..

i get to Melbourne and easily find my way around. get hungry jacks, have a look around and then go to the international terminal. once there i discover at almost 10am that my 12am flight had been delayed.... til 4PM. Ohh it was hell and I died of boredom... I spent ages on the phone to Becbec and Nan and Uncle and GeeGee.. people probably named me the phone girl. LOL.

SO after Hours of waiting, dying of boredom.. i finally got on the plane.. and sat in the wrong seat.. i got the right seat eventually.. and watched WANTED...
I am soooooo over airports.. Always stuffing up some how.....

SO now I am in Auckland With my best friend/Sister and her partner and my beautiful nephew...

I know that it was rushed,,, i am just very tired and cant be overly bothered going into detail about it.. maybe tomorrow or the day after... but soon.

SO.. A very long day later and I am in the living room semi watching Eli Stone and talking to Becbec and dying of heat exhaustion.

Goodnight.. It is 12:09am... so it is completely understandable that i stop now lol

Love you uncle.. Miss you
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Off To See the Wizard the Wonderful Wizard of NZ

It is unbelievable how fast time flies. It feels like only last week Becbec and I started counting down from 50 the days left til I went to NZ. And now, tomorrow... I will be there.

The excitement I feel is unparalleled to anything. My birthdays dont even compare. I am finally leaving Tasmania for the first time.. and to travel outside of Australia?? I mean yea sure, Becbec, GeeGee and Boop have already done it, but thats not the point. I am the only one out of my sisters to never have done it.. NOW I AM!!!
I feel like giggling and jumping up and down and grinning insanely. Tapping my legs and doing an excitement jig... LOL. my hands are shaking and my tummy has butterflies and I feel like a little kid all over again. Christmas is back for me... (And it will be for becbec and willykins..) I dont think i will be able to sleep tonight... Plus I will be getting up at four in the morning to get ready... DO my hair, makeup and stuff... Gotta look perfect..

I want to do things to distract myself but anything i do isnt enough. Can i just be in NZ already? that would be nice...

$870 in my wallet atm.. 10 from dad (thank you daddy) 10 from nan.. :) $500 from GeeGee (thank you sosososososo much my beautiful sister) and $350 from myself.

I hope i have everything I need. I keep thinking that I have forgotten something, but I dont think I have.. I hope I havent..(Must just be the hairspray that I know I cannot take with me :( Need Hairspray Peoples. and I dont know if they sell my hairspray in NZ.. would be just my luck that they didnt.)


Well.. ima off to read uncs blog now
Nighty night
Looking forward to tomorrow sooooooooo much :)
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Hair, Friends, and Australianism

I dont straighten my hair when I'm not going anywhere
I dont put make-up on when I'm not going anywhere
I like to laze around in my night clothes during the day
while doing whatever on my laptop and talking on the phone to becbec

[2DTG]

I straighten my hair to perfection when I am going somewhere. And then mess it up, spike it and spray it to a style I want.
I coat my eyeliner on nice and thick around my eyes and lightly put the foundation on.
I wear Converse (5/6/7) or thongs [8] (flipflops) or my little slip on shoes or my vans (7). I am finally building up my shoe collection.
I wear skinnyleg jeans. All the time. under dresses and tunics. I even considered wearing them to my leavers dinner (Prom) but was talked out of it.
If I wear a skirt or dress without Jeans then I wear my tights. Grey. thick. i dont like my legs...
I generally always wear a jacket.. sometimes even when it is really hot. but that is because i dont like my tshirts. I like my tshirts to be baggy.

I hang out in town at the local foodhall and the mall all the time. My friends are the local Sce.Ne and E.mo kids. they all like to think they are awesome, hardcore and misunderstood. (they are pretty awesome. are certainly NOT hardcore and are only misunderstood by themselves). They all belong to the one group but are all split up into separate groups inside that group. We have a united front, but we arent that together.
the group dwindles for a while and then goes back to being big. We rarely converse with people outside our group and those silly teenagers are obssessed with coffee.
I hang out with whoever. If i like the person, or am able to get along with the person, then all is cool. but i try and stick with the same people, cos i am pretty shy. I went to the same school for around ten years, and so i didnt really have to worry about making new friends, and then i had to go to college and i didnt think i was going to make new friends. and then i did. I barely see the people i spent the last ten or so years with and like them less then the people i know now (thats outside of my family). I have spent more time with the people i know now and know them better.
I was surprised at how easy it was to make friends. people are always willing to expand their friendship groups, so accepting someone that was generally quiet, and fun (atleast i like to think so) and someone that didnt argue or cause arguements, was something they didnt have any complaints about.


My main friends (outside my family) are Shel.Don. hes my cousin, and I've "known" him for ever. but i never actually knew him til this year. He's an awesome guy and we never argue. We have a lot of similarities.. and like a lot of the same things.. We have spent so much time together this year.. in my frees (and even in a lot of my non-frees) [frees from college classes]. we would go to KFC pretty much every day. and we have discovered that when we talk to each other we are actually talking a different language. ["Do you remember that night?" and Boop didnt understand a word he said "yeah" and cracking up beacause boop was like "What" and i knew exactly what night he was talking about] and there might be a telepathic connection there as well..

Eli.Se. Met her in english and art this year. she told me that she was jealous of me and (sal.ly) because we met and were straight up friends... Eli.Se is very very nice. very creative. and i love her to pieces. She is beautiful and is amazing to talk to. She is funny and cute. And if she were a guy... LOL. I was so glad I met her.

Sal.ly. We shared SA and Art. and on the first day of college she talked to me and that made people think we already knew each other. She reminds me of someone and i dont know who. she is very hypo and loves drama. she cracks me up with her fake irish accent. and is always doing something. i love being around her because she always makes me smile and laugh.

Jes.S she is freaking awesome. she is always calm and collected. her voice is very australian and i love it. i know her the least out of the three of her sal.ly and eli.se. i met her in art and via sal.ly because they were already friends. she is probably the quietest out of us all. and she is really funny.

Me, Eli.Se, Sal.ly and Jes.S met in college and have spent hours just laughing and not doing our work. complimenting each other and insulting each other. we make plans that will probs never happen. JEFS (Jes.s eli.se fifi and sal.ly)

=D i love my friends.

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Travelling, Family Tree, and Smelly People

These three images were taken throughout this year. the two shots with just me and one other person are me and Boop. the one with the three of us is me Shel.don and Kay.la. (i think thats her name, ive only met her a couple of times)... goodtimes goodtimes. Toyworld, witches hats.. Yes, we were sobre.

so there is three? days left til I finally leave tassie for the first time.. and go to NZ. =] so looking forward to it. I dont think I will be able to sleep for the next few nights, and the days are going to take forever.
I am so looking forward to seeing Becbec and willykins again, and finally actually meeting Kumar.
Plus as an added bonus Kumars brother is going to be the one picking me up from the airport!!!!!! :D OMG... apparantly he is going to leave work early to get ready to pick me,, (get ready to impress me :D) lol. ahhahaha. I'm looking forward to meeting him as well.. The girls (ie my sisters) have been saying he's even better looking in person then in his photos (and that is saying something) and one of them has even gone so far as to say he is DIVINE (So telling him that bahah!!)...

SPent the day on the phone to Becbec.. and started packing my suitcase... i still have a bit more stuff to put in it.. plus i need to put stuff in my messenger bag and will have to put my laptop in the laptop case. and some other stuff... got to find willy and becbecs pressies to put in the suitcase as well.
I AM SO EXCITED.

well actually at the moment i am stenched out... NAN.

for the few days before christmas eve i spent with Boop and my cousin Shel.don (he's my best friend outside of becbec.) he came down home with me and we stayed up the whole night talking, didnt get to sleep til around 6am, and then nan decided to make heaps of noise and try and wake us up, we all ignored her.
to explain how shel.don is my cousin would probably take a lot of effort.. but i am going to try it.. he is my mums mums sisters daughters daugthers son.... lol. or my nans great great nephew. LOL

the lounge room stinks.. so we left it and went to teh kitchen.. the stench has wafted to the kitchen so i went outside. sitting on the backstep breathing fresh air... ahhhh blessed fresh air.... the stench is disgusting.... we know what is causing the stench, but we cannot get rid of it, because then we would be murderers... (it aint no rat..) she knows who she is, but she wont admit it.

ok enough rambling.
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Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to everyone. I hope you all had (or have) a brilliant christmas that you will remember for years to come.

I shall inform you all with the list of my presents (or the presents that I can remember.. Short term memory here.)
-Anvers Chocolates (Dad)
-Chocolates (GeeGee)
-Chocolates (Nan)
-A Whale (Tu.Llen)
-Shoes [Vabns] (Uncle)
-Skinnies (Uncle)
-Grow your own crystals (Boop)
-Heavenly incense making kit [I think] (Boop)
-Mascara (Boop)
-Ring (GeeGee)
-New Moon by Stephenie Meyer (Dad)
-Deoderant (Boop)
-Hair Straightener (Dad)
-Jonas Brothers CD (Dad)
-Two pairs of underwear :P (Boop)
-$850 (Geegee and FiFi)
I think that was the extent of my presents... Its the most presents I have gotten in years..and sure it looks like alot written there but when you actually see it it doesnt look like a lot (i know, dont complain, at least i got some yerr?). But when they were all wrapped up under the christmas tree it looked like so much more, but maybe that was with everyones presents though..

Spent Christmas Eve at dads and Christmas morning to open the presents.. We got up at seven am to open them.. the latest we ever have, we used to get up at like four to six.. usually the former..
went down home at around ten thirty to have christmas dinner (Lunch).. Uncle was cooking... While it was being cooked we were on both webcam and the phone to Becbec so she could see and hear what was going on.
Lunch was delicious. Especially the Potato Salad... :D
We walked around a bit and then had desert. Christmas Pudding With Cream and Brandy Custard.. I started mine.. it was so yummy, but then after only a few mouthfuls I couldnt eat anymore....BECAUSE it gave me sweet tooth.. it always does but i always forget about it. It annoys me because then i cant eat it because I just want to get rid of the sweet tooth and so i dont continue the food i was eating once it is gone.
so instead i waited for the vanilla ice cream to defrost and then had a bowl of that with normal cream and the brandy custard.. it was yummy but very filling..

Eventually Boop and dad went back to town and then they day just turned back into a normal day and it doesnt feel like christmas anymore.. Maybe it is just because I am growing up and Christmas isnt that important because there is no little kids (or im not a little kid) to spoil.
Next Year there will be......

I miss the good old christmas' we used to have..
and for those people who think the traditional Australian christmas is held around the bbq and we play backyard cricket and all that... you know, barbie, cricket, boardies and snags....... Welll.... I dont actually know a single family that actualyl does that.. We have a roast (or something pretty similar) with the chutneys and sauces, turkeys (not this year though) hams, those things, and we eat it inside around the kitchen table. INSIDE. Just like anywhere else..So, thats a BIG NO to the bbq cricket and sausages :P
sorry to spoil any beliefs about that.. its just the same as england or america just without the snow... SUMMER christmas... Never a White Christmas... LOL

Merry Christmas World and Readers.
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Teenagers and Their Silliness!

So, I went and saw Twilight at the movies. Dad paid,,, :) and then I bought the book.. $25.00. went to the library and couldnt find a single Stephenie Meyer book. So we then went to Bir.Challs (the biggest book shop in Laun.ces.ton, but they did not have Twilight, they had every other book in the series but TWILIGHT. So, then we went to Ang.Us and Rob.Ert.Son and there was ONE twilight book left, so I all but ran to get it... :P So, now I own it.. FINALLY!!

I have been talking to Becbec a bit tonight, but she's talking about the airport a lot... but im kinda not listening...:P apparantly I am going to go into a "flatspin"Becbecs words... I AM NOT GOING TO MISS MY FLIGHT.. I AM GOING TO DO IT. SO BECBEC, GEEGEE AND EVERYONE ELSE NEEDS TO STOP SAYING IM NOT GOING TO. I WILL BE THE MOST MATURE ONE OUT OF US GIRLS.

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Ahh, the youth of today. So wild, so not innocent.
I will present you with a list of wild antics I have NEVER done. NEVER EVER. Nope, not me. All because I am a good, innocent little girl..
I highly advise Unc NOT to read this.... Please
Dont read this.!!!!
-I have NEVER been drunk. (I am, after all, underage.)
-I have NEVER been to an underage party
-I have NEVER kissed a guy I only met that night
-That guy I NEVER kissed was not my first kiss
-Nor was the guy I NEVER kissed Gay.
-The Second guy I NEVER kissed was also NEVER gay
-Nor was the second guy I NEVER kissed also a guy I NEVER met that night.
-I have NEVER danced with any Gay guys
-And certainly NEVER with any straight guys
-I have NEVER played Spin-the-bottle
-And the game of spin-the-bottle I NEVER played NEVER involved my best friend
-I have NEVER kissed any girls
-And some of the girls I NEVER kissed were NEVER lesbians (or bisexual)
-And some of the girls I NEVER kissed were NEVER any of my friends.
-I have NEVER fallen into an empty bathtub because I was laughing
-And the guy that NEVER caught me from NEVER falling into the bathtub was NEVER one of the guys that I NEVER kissed
-I NEVER got my make-up done for my Leavers Dinner by a gay guy
-And I NEVER met the Gay Guy that Never did my Make-Up for my Leavers Dinner at a party that I NEVER attended.
-I NEVER did anything silly at a party
-Though I NEVER attended any parties
-I NEVER giggle
-I NEVER said stupid things
-I Never joined in silly games
-And finally I NEVER stayed awake the entire party just to play pranks on other people.


*([ Okay, so the above is false. It is a list of things that I have actually done... No its not uncle, dont worry, i never did any of that... that is if you read that.!])*

Whatever happened to the innocence of youth?
i dont think a single one of my friends is innocent... they are all wild, and stupid... half of them are druggies, half of them barely have a brain between them.. barely any of them live at home.. hardly any of them dont go a month without partying wildy. they all think they are HARDXCORE. they are all wussie but think they arent.. And probably ninety percent of them are gay or bi. But to tell you the truth, i think some of them are pretty awesome people. I dont care if they do drugs, drink or smoke.. i dont care that they think they are the best, because even if they do do all that they are people i can get along with.. And I am willing to accept them for whatever they are, whoever they are, because that is just what should be done, and with some of them, other people arent as accepting.

but those silly teenagers that are the people I hangout with arent as important to me as my family. Because my family are the ones that put up with me, and i with them.
I LOVE MY SISTERS and MY UNCLE!!

Way Too Young

Hmm, so, today was great, brilliant. I was lazing around on the laptop, talking to Becbec. Watching High School Musical online, eating Lamingtons, Chicken wingdings, Yogo Gorrilla Yoghurt, Bananas, chatting on msn. it was fun, basic but fun. The way days should be.

And then, I was talking to Boop. Our friends were in a car accident. The driver is dead. Three passengers in hospital with serious injuries.

Joshy G (the driver). I am sure that it is pretty anonymous as to who that is. how many Josh's are there?

18 Years-Old. College student. Awesome guy,(and not just saying that because he died). He was seriously a nice guy. Loved to party. He called himself a jock/nerd/emo/scenekid and he got along with them all.

I remember the first time I met him. Earlier this year. With Boop and E.rin. He was a complete random. But so funny. And then, after that, whenever I saw him he would give me a hug, say hello, ask me how I was. I never hung out with him much. Now, I wish I did, I wish I had've got to know him better, but now, its probably best I didn't.

We went to a party together. Me and some others went and picked him up. We danced together, drank together.. Him and the other Josh (fondly titled W.endy) were having a competition. Something about being the bigger party animal. that type thing. Man, did he love to party. He liked to get involved.





RIP JoshyG






The thing is. Now I will never get to see him again. I'm never going to get to dance, or party, or drink with him again. and I dont want that. I want him alive. I want to be able to walk passed him in college or in town and say hi to him.
Its like it is beyond my comprehension. but i dont want to comprehend it at all if it means he would still be here.
Love you JoshyyG

Best Sister In The Entire World

Oooh the pain, the pain I tell you.
I spend over an hour and a half walking, without a break. Because I am so awesomely awesome. Just to go to the servo to get an EGG CHEESE MAYO HAM TOMATO AND LETTUCE ROLL. so, I left at 12:20 and got there at 1:50. Man did I die. I was listening to music the entire way, and texting. Just to keep entertained, because I dont like being by myself lol. SO I talkedd to Becbec half way and sent her pics of the area on my phone to her email :P

Ok. So, I am the best sister in the entire world. There is no denying that. Last year, or maybe at the beginning of this year (I wouldnt know, I get dates confused) i half paid for GeeGee's first car. 500 buckeroos just for her. And I did not expect her to pay me back.. SO she didnt lol. and now, she is getting another car. Dads Toyota Celica. But she has to pay him a hundred bucks a fortnight for three years. Well Dearies, best sister in the entire world steps in again. I am paying $50 a fortnight and she is paying $50. Bloodyhell she is lucky to have me as a sister.

Yesterday I bought myself some extensions :) and dyed my hair black again. Well Boop dyed it and she got it all over my face. Just like she did the night before my leavers dinner. SO i have blacky-blue dye all over my forehead.. its such a hott look :P

ok. thats it.
love you
Bye
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A Little Bit of Teenage Knowledge Passed On

Okk so, Been bumming and boring here. On the phone to Becbec (which isnt boring by the way) and have been discussing the upcoming trip (HEHEHEHEH so excited!. Have been reading online. As normal. Left my book that I was reading at dads, so reverted to Internet.

Ok so I just went for a walk to the beach with my neighbour. It was hot and windy, and because of the heat made both of us thirsty, and it sucks that there is no shop around our area to get a drink. So we came back earlier then was probably planned. Not that that bothered me as it was so hot. We went to the old bomb shelter thing, and because the water has dried up we were able to go into the lower parts of it. The last time I was there the bottom was inaccessible due to the water. Some of it was still under an inch or two of water, but most of those bits had boards and bricks so we could walk across them.
I really like the old bombshelter, i think it is cool. but maybe that is because it is private property and I am a teenager, so technically I am tresspassing. Oh wells, it is still fun, and it is right next to the beach. The walls have rubbish graffiti on them, but thats because the local teenagers aren't that creative! lol. There were also old cans of "Pulse" because, like, that is so hardcore. You know, tresspass and then drink PULSE. That is kinda weak.. but oh wells. teenagers from my area. TskTsk.

Anywho.

A word of, I dont know, something. Knowledge I guess is what I am about to give you. A lot of people have probably heard the term "Taxing" being used by teenagers. They say they "Taxed" a pair of shoes or something. Their version of taxing is actually stealing. they stole those shoes. The teenagers claim that it is their right to "tax" the item, because they pay for food or something. These are middle-class kids who have everything they need anyway, yet they go around and shoplift.
Just thought I'd let some people in on it. So, "taxing" equals "stealing". Also, the kids are getting crafty these days with it. I know, I've seen some of them do it. I think it is stupid and inappropriate. The middle-class kids who use the term "taxing" are the ones that do it more often then most other middle-class kids who just call it stealing.

TTFN
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first photos :)

I've gotten lazy and havent been keeping you posted on my wonderfully interesting life
So, you can see pictures of me, and people! people i love :)
Talked to Becbec on the phone and got heaps of Xmas pressies today. i got becbecs bday pressie. she is going to love it. i know she will. :)
BTW Will does have chickenpox. thought I'd mention that cos becbec didnt. LOL :)

BuhBye
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Poetry, Dedication

Ok, so it has been a day or two since I last posted. Want a reason? Well, I wanted to post a poem. The problem with that is that I didnt know what to write. When I write poetry I dont just settle for whatever, I need it to be good, really good, before I let other people see it. But I haven't really written any poetry this year, it has mostly been short stories and stuff for English Writing, because in that class most people preferred poetry, so I had to be different and focus on stories. Thats because I don't like to conform to the majority.

Today has been a normal day. You know, on the phone to Becbec :).. Ooh also, I went into the supermarket by myself. I hate going places by myself, I always need someone to go with me. But I went in BY MYSELF!!! Proud anyone?? I am. But its not going to happen often!

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Black and white
A faded photograph,
My memories of you
Are fading and breaking,
Years are passing
Taking me from you,
A warm embrace
I can never get back,
Words of compassion
Only you could give,
A home to be held
Within my very heart,
The pain is fading
Floating away,
As I whisper
A final goodbye
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Dedicated to my mother, as an early 47th birthday present. She died of cancer when I was little. I will have another poem written for her and post it on her birthday.
Thats the best I have been able to write in a while. I kind of like it, but it wasn't really what I had in mind.

And speaking of dedicated, DEDICATION. I have said before that I want to write a book, well, the reason I havent yet is because I lack dedication. Like, I start, then stop for the day or something and I never continue. Like, I have written stories that are over 20 pages long, but I stop and never finish.
I spend a lot of my time reading and writing Fan Fiction (Fan Fiction is writing stories based around characters or themes from something, ranging from books, to movies, to bands and tv shows. Harry Potter is a major thing to write in within the world of Fan Fiction. google Fan Fiction and you will then know). A lot of Fan Fiction based of books or movies or tv shows are even better then the original.
(Harry Potter fanfiction on fanfiction(dot)net has over three hundred thousand stories!) I like writing fan fiction because everything is already created, all I need to write is the story line. But even with fan fiction I put it down for the night and I dont continue it again, or I do, but rarely.
I love reading things, because it is all written, its not MY imagination that everything is coming from, so, then I dont know what is about to happen.

Anyways.

Sleep Well my little grasshoppers!
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